Taiwan!! And other stuff in my life…


Yet again, I have no idea why I am doing this, nor why I am so blatantly posting ridiculous details of my life to the scary void known as the Internet, but I am honestly so so bored and I feel like I should do something interesting with my life that’s not productive.

Plus, at the lovely recommendation from my dear sister (Sup you little stalker) I have started reading this book called ‘Girl Online’ by Zoella, and I guess it’s like how I associate books with my everyday life, like a lot? For example, after reading/watching ‘If I Stay’ I had a seriously intense urge to start learning the cello and join a band. Yeah. So this is my way of ‘diffusing’ the words of literature into the person who I am, and I have no idea if that even made sense.

But then like the concept of the online world is actually so frightening to think about, like with Facebook and Instagram. For all we know, there could be some creepy pedophilic stalker who is currently reading everything I put online and doing that location tracking thing and finding out where I live and waiting for the perfect time to come murder/kidnap/hold me for random etc. Just saying. Lovely inspirational words from dear Chloe.

Okay, anyways. Back to the ‘main’ topic of this. It’s the ‘summer’ holidays so I’m in Taiwan now. Yay. The world of amazing Asian food and shopping and books and fast Internet. Actually, no, that’s the glorified, tourist pamphlet version. In reality it’s just days of avoiding human contact and sitting in the same place the whole day and only leaving the apartment to get food. And sighing at how depressing New Zealand really is.

Oh look, they’re playing Fur Elise. I miss the piano already.

This is actually so lonerish and boring I don’t even. Like the idea of sitting here not knowing what to do, not the ‘Let’s just rant about my life in the Internet’, cause I’m okay with that (lolol).

Okay seriously, how do people do this? There is not a single detail of my life that is interesting and worth writing about, and everything I publish sounds so cringeworthy when I go back and read it months later that I just internally facepalm at my past self and regret it all. (P.S. Please, for my sake, do’t go back and read the pathetic stuff that I’ve posted…)

I have to go now. What a tragedy.

Farewell, humans.


Greetings again…

Here I am, sitting in my room, trying my best to remember the reasons various chemicals react with each other, and just generally being really bored and frustrated about the entire concept of studying.

So what better way to procrastinate everything by casually making another post on something which I really very much gave up like, half a year ago?

And now I feel slightly creeped out about this whole ‘Let’s make some fancy legit blog’ thing, because so apparently lots of people now about this? And it’s like, ‘Wow, there is thing thing called the Internet, and there are actual people who can stalk and find and read all of this!’ I mean, not that anyone would actually be bothered, but it’s still vaguely creepy…

Like, no offence, but seriously how can some people honestly feel so comfortable about sharing every single aspect of their personal life on the Internet?

But I really need to decide what to do with this, like What is there that I can post/write about?

Book reviews are so much fun, but then it starts to feel A LOT like extra school work over time… And my life is way to boring to write about; I literally spend every holiday/weekend/after school/free time doing something school related like musical practices or robotics competitions or catching on my ridiculous amounts of school work. (Note to people: ‘It really isn’t a wise idea to take almost double the amount of subjects everyone else is. Just, don’t do it to yourself. Trust me’, I say as I plan to take the same amount next year…)

Like, I really want to write something really awesome and then become famous etc. off it like John Watson, and like it’s really cool how I see all these people who are ‘professional bloggers’ where they literally just buy nice nail polish and post pretty pictures on the Internet. I mean I do get that that would be really boring after time, but it would still be so cool to just write as like a side-hobby sort of thing? Except my slight problem of really really not wanting people to read anything of mine…

Or maybe I really should just give up this whole thing. And like, study and write songs and reblog pictures of Sherlock and read. You know, the stuff normal sixteen year olds do.

Not really.

But okay, it’s so weird because the only ‘blogging’ I’ve ever done is evidently on Tumblr, which is a predominantly young society (I’m pretty sure it’s mostly Twelvies through to people in their mid-twenties?). And then on here (I seriously mean no offence if anyone is actually reading this!) I just feel like it is actual, serious, people who aren’t doing this because they are bored and obsessed with leaving behind something after they die (Yes, I am talking about me), but rather as a hobby or to share legitimate feelings about the world (Which I guess I am sort of aiming to do?)

I really should go back to studying now…

So farewell, human beings.

Until next time,


I Can’t Stay Mad at You

Do you hold grudges or do you believe in forgive and forget?

Honestly, I really don’t know. This is something I have wondered about for a long time, and I guess for me it just depends on the situation and the person involved. Honestly, no one (who I keep in contact and talk to etc.) has giving me any reason to hate them off the top of the head, unless it’s something so small and insignificant I can’t remember.

I do think it’s better to forgive and forget because there is absolutely no point in holding onto something which happened so long ago, so that is what I am trying to do about everything – to try not to mind too much and move on instead of living in the past. I do genuinely hope that people do not judge me based on what I might’ve done before, so I am working on doing the same thing. 


It’s My Party

You’re throwing a party – for you! Tell us about the food, drink, events, and party favours you’ll have for your event of a lifetime. Use any theme you like – it’s *your* party!

I think parties are supposed to be my ‘thing’, considering the fact that I am currently a teenager. But to be honest, I really hate parties. I hate being forced to socialise with people who I really do not want to know, I hate having to be nice and friendly to everyone, I hate all the super loud generic pop music. The only thing I remotely like about parties is that it’s an excuse to eat really unhealthy food and not do anything productive.

But nevertheless, here is what my ‘ideal’ party would consist of.

As I am sure I have mentioned multiple times, I have some very unhealthy obsessions with various books and TV shows, namely Harry Potter, Sherlock, Marvel and Doctor Who.

So what I would like to be able to do is have all of this fandom-themed decorations, an unlimited supply of food, loads of nice things to watch, and perhaps a few actors from those said shows. (*cough* Tom Hiddleston and Benedict Cumberbatch.)

Actually, most of that just sounds like my ideal day.

But actually, I have recently discovered a weakness for extremely fancy events, like the whole long evening dresses with hair done up and fancy venues with wine and expensive food. Although those would be extremely painful on a daily basis.

In conclusion though, I would still have completely nothing against the idea of just sitting at home with a bunch of close friends and pizza marathoning some TV show.


The Wanderer

Tell us about the top five places you’ve always wanted to visit. GO!

Well, I am pretty sure this topic is supposed to be one that is taken seriously, in other words a list of places that are NOT fictional and one could actually go to. But as ever, my mind is simply not wired that way, so I shall make two separate lists (because I like lists.)

Fictional Places:

  1. Hogwarts. I mean, come on. Out of the people who have grown up with the series and waited for the movies to come out, who doesn’t want to go and enter the magical world of moving staircases and dragons and Quidditch? Plus the library alone would be just amazing.
  2. Asgard. The beautiful buildings and scenery, not to mention two extremely attractive Norse gods. Enough said.
  3. The inside of a TARDIS. Pretty much self-explanatory. Again, who doesn’t want to travel through all of time and space with the Doctor?
  4. The Seven Kingdoms. I know, I know. Endless bloodshed and fighting and people dying. But I still think it would be fascinating to enter that world and just experience everything firsthand. Although I’m not sure how long I’d survive.
  5. Middle Earth. Well technically, being in New Zealand probably already counts. But where are all of the elves and hobbits and dwarves?

Real-life Places I could actually go to one day:

  1. Comic-Con. I’m not even going to try explain how much this would mean to me. It would be like the equivalent of all my dreams coming true at one time in the one place multiplied by an unimaginable amount.
  2. The Sherlock Holmes museum in London. Like, actually to have the opportunity to go to 221B. Mind-blown.
  3. The Wizard World of Harry Potter. Again, pretty self-explanatory. Plus you get to actually try Butterbeer and get a wand.
  4. Greece and Rome. Just to be able to see all the old architecture and the museums and the history behind everything. Same with Egypt.
  5. Anywhere in Japan. I know it’s probably nothing like what you see on Internet or in anime, but I just really want to go there one day and try the food.

Looking back at my list, I have realised how the majority of these are fictional or based around something that is. Which just shows how much I have actually integrated the made-up world of others into mine.


Showdown at Big Sky

How do you handle conflict? Boldly and directly? Or, do you prefer a more subtle approach.

This for me, depends on the people who are involved and how extreme the said conflict is. There are usually two typical reactions from me when dealing with people whom I do not agree with:

  1. Tell myself that they are inferior human beings of no significance and therefore do not deserve me putting in the time and effort in stating the obvious to prove them wrong. 
  2. Plan out and correctly structure an entire argument in my mind describing the various points which they are definitely wrong and I am definitely right whilst acknowledging some counterpoints and destroying them, and then say all of this in one breath speaking as fast as I possibly can in order to lessen the amount of time where I have to speak and all attention is focussed on me.

I’m not sure whether these classify as either boldly or subtly, but whilst I do want to be direct the majority of the time, I tend to lengthen everything I say and think greatly, and try not to use contractions whenever possible. I also find it very, very hard to be ‘straight to the point,’ as proven in many situations. An example of the first thing that comes to mind right now was when (and I’m laughing whilst I think of this) my friends decided to randomly talk about me to a person who I did not know at all on their Facebook. This infuriated me a lot at the time, and therefore I spent about an hour writing an entire essay to both my friends and that person describing the situation and how much I hated and wanted to stab them all with a fork. It was only afterwards that my other friend pointed out I could have just explained everything in one sentence.

So I guess I am the more subtle approach sort of person, who drags on something and takes a very long time to get what I want to say across.

(I have started realising my awful tendency to join phrases together and write super long sentences which you need to either read really fast, or take an awkward breath/stop halfway…)


Because the Night

Are you a night owl or are you the early bird? What’s your most productive time of day? When do you do your best work?

Sleep. What an interesting topic.

As I am currently sitting here and writing this at ten o’clock at night, I think the answer to that is pretty clear: I am, most undoubtedly, a ‘night owl.’

I have never really been a ‘morning’ person, and perhaps partly due to my warped sleeping pattern, that is a time when I really cannot function very well. Which works absolutely great with the whole education system and expected sleeping times of normal humans.

I recently realised that there was actually a thing known as insomnia where you are unable to sleep and don’t get enough of it, which got me rather worried. The truth is, my entire brain is warped and the most productive time of day for me definitely some time in the evening or very late at night, such as right now. I can stay up super, super late on school nights, get up in time for school, and still be able to function okay throughout the day and even sit exams. I didn’t find anything wrong with this for a very long time, and didn’t really feel very motivated or understand the need to sleep. (And I am currently listening to the song Up All Night, which probably doesn’t really help matters.) My theory was that basically we as humans need about eight hours of sleep, so therefore spend a third of our lives induced in a coma-like state being unproductive. However, if I could somehow alter my way of life, I could ensure that I only get about six to seven hours of sleep and still be able to function. Which I have done over the course of the last few years. I thought that doing this would mean that I could get more out of life and have the time to spend my teenage years doing all those things I want to, such as read and write and finish shows. Of course, my plan did not exactly work as I expected, as I didn’t take into account the fact that this would mean I spend the majority of mornings in a state of hating everything and drowning out everything around me. Which put me completely back to square one, and now I am desperately trying to change my sleeping pattern to something that is somewhat normal, and attempt to sleep before twelve everyday.

Which is why I am going to stop writing now, and maybe make an effort to try and sleep earlier. Because that is definitely going to happen.