Dust in the Wind

Have you made your bucket list? Now’s the time — write about the things you want to do and see before you become dust in the wind.

I waited a while before doing this, because there was a time where I was obsessed with the idea of leaving behind a mark and having a fulfilling life before dying. Actually, no, that’s a lie. One of the main things I constantly think about are ways which I can ensure I die at the right time. The ‘right’ time being on my own terms: because I am 100% ready to leave this world.

This list is about to get very, very long, and I have included many things from a bucket list I made a few years ago, some of which I have already done. They range from insanely deep, to insanely improbable. Many of these are completely stupid and just things I want to actually do one day. As for the others, I am pretty certain they will never, ever be able to be achieved (Possibly because they are merely in the mind.). But far-fetched as they seem, we’ve all been constantly taught to dream, right?

So here goes (in no particular order) a list of things I want to do one day:

  • Finish all the books on my constantly-increasing to-read list
  • Meet an author of one of my favourite books
  • Meet someone from BBC Sherlock
  • Meet someone from one of my favourite TV show/movies
  • Finish a 10,000 word fanfic
  • Write and publish a novel
  • Compose a song with lyrics, chords, bass lines etc.
  • Dye my hair purple
  • Understand the meaning of having a best friend
  • Fall in love
  • Jump off a cliff
  • Go up on a downwards escalator or vice-versa
  • Stared in the face of death
  • Learn Latin
  • Learn Greek
  • Go to a pop concert
  • Be somewhat normal
  • Be fluent in multiple languages
  • Write a Tumblr theme from scratch
  • Learn how to put on makeup properly
  • Go to England
  • Own a house which I am proud of
  • Have one of those floor-to-ceiling libraries with a secret room
  • Have a grand staircases like in the Titanic and Hogwarts
  • Be proud of myself
  • Be able to look back and not regret everything
  • Be satisfied in life
  • Not hate the world
  • Write a will
  • And a suicide note. Just in case
  • Die when I want to
  • Be remembered
  • Go to a nice university
  • Travel somewhere with my best friend
  • Audition for some TV show
  • Kiss in the rain
  • Go to Starbucks
  • Go to every nice restaurant in my current town
  • Go to someone nice’s wedding
  • Stop being ‘depressed’
  • Learn archery
  • And fencing
  • Let people in
  • Go to a movie premier
  • Not lose touch of people who matter
  • Have enough money to be able to have the life I want
  • Learn the guitar
  • Learn the drums
  • Stop hating myself
  • Never swear
  • Or use incorrect grammar and spelling purposely
  • Control emotions and tears
  • Stop regretting stuff
  • Learn to make every moment in my life mean something
  • Leave something behind in this world

These are all I can think of for the present. I may or may not add more later; it really depends on whether I can be bothered or not!



Titanic (1997)


A few hours ago, the closing credits and the finishing notes of ‘My Heart Will Go On’ faded across the screen only to be replaced by that inevitable feeling of sadness and questions about the cruelty of existence.

I am aware that Titanic is one of those movies everyone should have seen some time in their life and just knows about, but of course being the cultured person I am, I have never seen it until just before. Actually, that’s not quite true: I remember my parents watching it when I was around eight, and not really understanding anything that was going on except the awkward sketching scene and also the fact that loads of people died at the end.

Seven years later, my interpretation is somewhat completely different.

I think everyone knows the basic plot of the movie (even I did!), but if not, basically there is a huge ship called the Titanic that hits an iceberg and pretty much everyone on it dies. And there’s a person called Rose who is of the upper class and a person called Jack who isn’t, and surprise surprise, they fall in love and to be honest I think it is one of the cutest love stories ever (not that I have seen many.)

And I suppose the fact that Leonardo diCaprio plays one of the main characters doesn’t really hurt.

I’ve seen him in other movies such as Romeo and Juliet and The Great Gatsby, and to be honest my only question is Why does he always have to be cast as the lead male who dies? Why?

I suppose a main idea from this movie is that of the fragility of life, and also the sheer arrogance mankind when everything comes to the worse, but another theme is that of love and what it can make someone do, for bringing out both the good and bad. Do I believe this story could happen in real life? To be honest, I’m not really sure. I mean, the whole people watching their loved ones dying because they placed their trust in others probably happens every single day without us realising it nor caring. But the relationship between Rose and Jack? (As a side note, whenever I think of Rose and Jack I still think Rose Tyler and Captain Jack Harkness. Plus Rose looked so much like Amy Pond in the end scenes.) I like to think that they would’ve had to base the story from real life experiences to do with love. I do like to think that. But the truth is, this is a movie. And if a movie where the majority of characters are fictional can’t even have a happy ending, then what is going to happen in real life?

Something else that really got to me in this movie was how people think of themselves first and fore-mostly. I despise all the people for it, yet I guess if I was placed in a similar situation I would do the same. I would make sure me, my family and my friends were safe before thinking about anyone else in the slightest. And so would everyone, which leads to what happened near the end of the movie. All the security guards annoyed so much, especially how they wouldn’t let the third class passengers up to the deck even though the bottom was slowly becoming submerged. But they were just doing what they had to. They had to keep order or there would be more chaos than before.

You can’t put the blame of the ship sinking onto one person, but what also annoyed me was that the entire thing could have actually been avoided. Unlike earthquakes, tornados, and other natural events, if people actually stopped to consider the fact that maybe not everything would go exactly to plan, and prepare for so then none of it might’ve happened.

On a less serious note, there was a post I saw on Tumblr showing a picture of the iceberg with ‘The Show’ being the tip of the iceberg above the water, and ‘The Fandom’ being the much bigger bottom section below the surface. And the Titanic being the ship that crashes into the iceberg. I have often used the phrase ‘I will go down with this ship’ to describe many of my OTPs, but I guess I do start to get the enormity of those words. The captain never left the ship even though he knew both he and it were going to sink. And neither will I.

Winning that ticket, Rose, was the best thing that ever happened to me… it brought me to you. And I’m thankful for that, Rose. I’m thankful. You must do me this honor. Promise me you’ll survive. That you won’t give up, no matter what happens, no matter how hopeless. Promise me now, Rose, and never let go of that promise.’

Saturday Night

S-A-T-U-R-D-A-Y NIGHT! What’s your favorite way to spend Saturday night?

This topic amused me greatly, because I am currently sitting in bed on a Saturday night blogging about what I do on Saturday nights. Although technically speaking, it is currently past midnight where I am so it is Sunday morning, but let’s just not go there.

So what is my favourite way of spending Saturday nights?

As sad as it seems, I actually love it when I can just spend an entire evening sitting alone in my room with a huge stash of food and a stack of books to read, really good music, fast Internet, or loads of episodes of some show to marathon. And to be able to just eat what I want to without worrying about how disgustingly unhealthy I am and how I am going to hate myself later, and to read or blog or watch shows without thinking about the amount work I still have to do and should technically be doing, and how unproductive and lazy I am and how it’s not surprising I failed all of my exams last year. Oh, and also not worry about my lack of sleep and how screwed up my sleeping pattern is.

In conclusion, I haven’t ever had a ‘favourite’ Saturday night. But a girl can dream, right?


Allegient (Divergent, #3) by Veronica Roth


I read the first two books in the Divergent series quite a while ago (some time last year) and when the final of this trilogy came out, I did intend to read it. However as with all other things going on in life, namely school exams and my already too-big pile of books to read, I never got a chance to get my hands on a copy. However as I am sure most of you are aware, the much-anticipated movie of the first book Divergent has recently come out (I will find time to see it some time soon!) and my sister along with her friends, are forcing themselves to read it before watching the movie, hence her getting the entire series. Therefore being the kind person I am, I promptly stole the last book off her and read it in one sitting before she realised I had taken it.

But enough on me getting the actual book. Many of my friends have read it and I have also accidentally seen a few spoilers online, so I wasn’t really as surprised about the ending as I should’ve have. But compared to the other two books in the series, I must say I am quite disappointed. I did not really have very high expectations for how the trilogy was going to end (look at what happened to Mockingjay), but as with all dystopian conclusions, I felt that the author tried to put way too much in the final book which steered away from the original idea of the factions that got me into this series. I am also currently reading the Matched series, by Allie Condie, and I do hate to say this but there is no doubt a certain reoccurrence in Young Adult dystopian novels. You have the main character who is usually a female who is headstrong, fierce and says that she is no one special yet manages to be involved in the centre of the uprising which destroys the society, and a few side characters including obviously her boyfriend. I don’t really have a problem with this idea, I mean who doesn’t love reading about a girl who can stand up for herself and kick ass? But what I don’t really like is how the overall plot starts to get a little predictable and in the final book, the author seems to use the ‘let’s kill off every single character’ strategy, and basically everyone who you have become attached to dies. I do get that that is purposely to show the dangers of the world they are in, and that there is a thin line between life and death, but is it really necessary to kill everyone?

What was going to be a short plot summary of Allegiant has turned into a rant about dystopian series, and I do apologise. I just have a lot of strong feelings on that subjects.

So back to the plot summary. Basically the story continues on from the previous two books: there is an uprising and some people want to use the death serum to kill off a bunch of people whilst others want to use a memory serum so they forget about everything and the main character Tris goes and tries to save everyone that she loves but that doesn’t really work hence the horrible ending. Sorry, sort of spoiler.

Do I recommend this book? Probably. Maybe. I mean, if you have read the first two books, then definitely by all means complete the trilogy. But if you were just randomly looking for a book to read, then I would suggest either starting at the first book, or just not reading it at all because it would be very confusing on its own. But looking back, there is A LOT of plots holes that remain unanswered about the series and that frustrates me.

I’m still not very sure how to write ‘proper’ books reviews (If anyone has suggestions, please help!) but I am going to try and write a bit about books I’ve recently read and enjoyed because much as I love reading, writing is also my form of relaxing and ranting about my thoughts through the form of words.

To finish off with a quote from the book (because I have an unhealthy obsession with quotes): ‘There are so many ways to be brave in this world. Sometimes bravery involves laying down your life for something bigger than yourself, or for someone else. Sometimes it involves giving up everything you have ever known, or everyone you have ever loved, for the sake of something greater.
But sometimes it doesn’t.’

Looking for Alaska by John Green

I’m not actually very sure how to do this, but I want to get back into blogging and I do enjoy writing book reviews so I am going to try and write one for books I’ve read and loved.


I must confess that the first time I read this book, I did not like it. In the slightest. I hated Alaska, I hated Miles, I hated the Colonel; basically I just hated all of the characters. Now, normally when this happens I can still manage to enjoy the book, for example The Great Gatsby. But the first time I read it, I simply hated everything about them such as the way they talked and the way they acted and just couldn’t see the point of it at all.

But then my friends all started having a John Green obsession and asked to borrow it, and I figured since I had nothing else to read, I could try and reread it and see if the way I look at it is going to be different like it was when I reread The Fault in Our Stars.

And sure enough, that was the case.

I don’t know whether it is because I am currently going through an ‘I hate everything’ and a ‘What is the point of my existence’ phase, but this time round I guess I just really got the character of Alaska. I understood why she was the way she was; why she acted and talked that way. That didn’t really mean I liked her any more, but I started to see things about her which I could relate to and also see in myself. Which I don’t know whether or not I should be worried about.

In terms of book reviews, this is probably very, very awful considering the fact that it does not have a real structure whosoever and I am basically just writing down whatever thoughts come to my mind.

I think I should probably include a short plot summary, so basically here is the story.

A guy goes to a boarding school and meets a girl called Alaska. She’s funny, witty, outgoing; basically everything that he’s not. He falls in love with her, she has a boyfriend, they have some cute moments but are always reminded of the fact that she has someone, she finds him a girlfriend. They live happily ever after.

Okay, that’s not the ending. But I don’t really know how to put it without giving away any spoilers.

What I love/hate about the novel is that it finishes off without finding out exactly what happened to Alaska. And we are left wondering and wanting to know what happens but knowing that’s the end. And I guess that’s also how life is. I mean, there are some things that we will actually never, ever know despite how much we want to, but sometimes this is probably also for the best. Perhaps it is better that we are not certain of everything in this world and there is always more that we can find out for ourselves, or maybe not at all.

So to finish off with a deep quote, Imagining the future is a kind of nostalgia. You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you’ll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.’

An Attempt to Organise Everything

I feel like I should use this website as an opportunity to organise my very unorganised life and in short, mind. So I am going to try and list all of my fandoms (or just the things I have an intense love for) here and add to them when I find yet another, because knowing me, by the end of this year this will have increased immensely. They are going to be in no particular order because I am really too lazy to put them in alphabetical order or range them in preference. Plus how does one decide between Harry Potter or Sherlock?


  • Harry Potter series
  • Sherlock Holmes
  • The Perks of being a Wallflower
  • The Lord of the Rings
  • The Hobbit
  • The Hunger Games
  • Divergent
  • The Mortal Instruments
  • The Infernal Devices
  • The Fault in Our Stars
  • Percy Jackson and the Olympians
  • Maximum Ride
  • The Millenium Trilogy
  • The Inheritance cycle
  • His Dark Materials
  • Artemis Fowl
  • Warriors Cats
  • Rick Riordan novels
  • John Green novels
  • The Great Gatsby
  • Marvel Comics
  • The Walking Dead Comics
  • Dan Brown novels
  • Young Sherlock Holmes
  • The Catcher in the Rye
  • Catch-22
  • The Book Thief
  • It’s Kind of a Funny Story

Movies, TV Shows and Anime

  • BBC Sherlock
  • Doctor Who
  • Supernatural
  • Marvel
  • Hannibal
  • Game of Thrones
  • Elementary
  • Torchwood
  • Star Trek
  • Star Wars
  • Les Misérables
  • Hetalia
  • Parade’s End
  • Agent’s of S.H.I.E.L.D.
  • Broadchurch

Top 10 Reasons Why it’s Cool to be an Asian Female

The accuracy of this is astounding.

Eat This

1. There is nothing more satisfying than the look on someone’s face when they watch me parallel park in one try.

2. Most of my best friends are gay guys and hipsters.

3. Straight guys with yellow fever hold doors open for me and buy me drinks.

4. I can magically disappear by blending into a group of other Asian females.

5. Strangers on the street rarely ever talk to me because they think I can’t speak English.

6. I get to amuse myself by making people uncomfortable by pretending to be offended when they reference anything remotely Asian.  For example:

“Can you pass me that fortune cookie?”

“What the hell did you call me?!?!”

7. I can lie about my age and get away with it.

8. Crazy old dudes tell me amazing war stories about their days during the Korean War.

9. Crazy old dudes start speaking to…

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