rant

Showdown at Big Sky

How do you handle conflict? Boldly and directly? Or, do you prefer a more subtle approach.

This for me, depends on the people who are involved and how extreme the said conflict is. There are usually two typical reactions from me when dealing with people whom I do not agree with:

  1. Tell myself that they are inferior human beings of no significance and therefore do not deserve me putting in the time and effort in stating the obvious to prove them wrong. 
  2. Plan out and correctly structure an entire argument in my mind describing the various points which they are definitely wrong and I am definitely right whilst acknowledging some counterpoints and destroying them, and then say all of this in one breath speaking as fast as I possibly can in order to lessen the amount of time where I have to speak and all attention is focussed on me.

I’m not sure whether these classify as either boldly or subtly, but whilst I do want to be direct the majority of the time, I tend to lengthen everything I say and think greatly, and try not to use contractions whenever possible. I also find it very, very hard to be ‘straight to the point,’ as proven in many situations. An example of the first thing that comes to mind right now was when (and I’m laughing whilst I think of this) my friends decided to randomly talk about me to a person who I did not know at all on their Facebook. This infuriated me a lot at the time, and therefore I spent about an hour writing an entire essay to both my friends and that person describing the situation and how much I hated and wanted to stab them all with a fork. It was only afterwards that my other friend pointed out I could have just explained everything in one sentence.

So I guess I am the more subtle approach sort of person, who drags on something and takes a very long time to get what I want to say across.

(I have started realising my awful tendency to join phrases together and write super long sentences which you need to either read really fast, or take an awkward breath/stop halfway…)

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Because the Night

Are you a night owl or are you the early bird? What’s your most productive time of day? When do you do your best work?

Sleep. What an interesting topic.

As I am currently sitting here and writing this at ten o’clock at night, I think the answer to that is pretty clear: I am, most undoubtedly, a ‘night owl.’

I have never really been a ‘morning’ person, and perhaps partly due to my warped sleeping pattern, that is a time when I really cannot function very well. Which works absolutely great with the whole education system and expected sleeping times of normal humans.

I recently realised that there was actually a thing known as insomnia where you are unable to sleep and don’t get enough of it, which got me rather worried. The truth is, my entire brain is warped and the most productive time of day for me definitely some time in the evening or very late at night, such as right now. I can stay up super, super late on school nights, get up in time for school, and still be able to function okay throughout the day and even sit exams. I didn’t find anything wrong with this for a very long time, and didn’t really feel very motivated or understand the need to sleep. (And I am currently listening to the song Up All Night, which probably doesn’t really help matters.) My theory was that basically we as humans need about eight hours of sleep, so therefore spend a third of our lives induced in a coma-like state being unproductive. However, if I could somehow alter my way of life, I could ensure that I only get about six to seven hours of sleep and still be able to function. Which I have done over the course of the last few years. I thought that doing this would mean that I could get more out of life and have the time to spend my teenage years doing all those things I want to, such as read and write and finish shows. Of course, my plan did not exactly work as I expected, as I didn’t take into account the fact that this would mean I spend the majority of mornings in a state of hating everything and drowning out everything around me. Which put me completely back to square one, and now I am desperately trying to change my sleeping pattern to something that is somewhat normal, and attempt to sleep before twelve everyday.

Which is why I am going to stop writing now, and maybe make an effort to try and sleep earlier. Because that is definitely going to happen.

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Saturday Night

S-A-T-U-R-D-A-Y NIGHT! What’s your favorite way to spend Saturday night?

This topic amused me greatly, because I am currently sitting in bed on a Saturday night blogging about what I do on Saturday nights. Although technically speaking, it is currently past midnight where I am so it is Sunday morning, but let’s just not go there.

So what is my favourite way of spending Saturday nights?

As sad as it seems, I actually love it when I can just spend an entire evening sitting alone in my room with a huge stash of food and a stack of books to read, really good music, fast Internet, or loads of episodes of some show to marathon. And to be able to just eat what I want to without worrying about how disgustingly unhealthy I am and how I am going to hate myself later, and to read or blog or watch shows without thinking about the amount work I still have to do and should technically be doing, and how unproductive and lazy I am and how it’s not surprising I failed all of my exams last year. Oh, and also not worry about my lack of sleep and how screwed up my sleeping pattern is.

In conclusion, I haven’t ever had a ‘favourite’ Saturday night. But a girl can dream, right?

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